I was up again last night, only this time because my mind was chock full of ideas and couldn’t shut itself off. See, I’m growing this dream of becoming a photographer for real – like the kind that hands out business cards and offers photo packages. I’ve got quite a bit to figure out of course – a lot to figure out, and it’s way too easy when staring down such a time and energy-consuming challenge for me to become overwhelmed, to the point of paralysis. But this time I do believe the drive is there, and the love is there, to soldier on. Being older helps, and having been rejected as a writer helps, in that I’ve been there and done that as far as comparing myself to others and lamenting my shortcomings in light of their crazy awesome talents.
It took years to digest the freeing fact there’s room for everyone’s unique voice as far as creative expression is concerned, and that really, when it comes down to it, success in any field hinges on persistent hard work and a refusal to stay down when knocked down. Trial and error, baby! That’s where the breakthroughs lie waiting to rush in and lead us forward. Finally tearing through a mental roadblock, after having bumped up hard against it ad nauseam, is electrifying.
All that to say, I’ve no idea where this passion will carry me but I’m committed to appreciating the incremental daily steps along the journey. This afternoon that included pouring over photography books at Barnes and Noble while sipping coffee and taking notes. I’m praying for the discipline to be patient with myself, gentle with myself, and respectful of the process.
Here’s to new tricks, and the courage it takes for middle-aged moms to learn them!
When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability… To be alive is to be vulnerable. – Madeleine L’Engle
Good for you Molly! Glen just told me that he cannot have personal pictures hanging on his office walls, so we may be browsing through your pictures on Snapfish and order some large ones to frame.
One step at a time – one step at a time…
Hugs,
~Michelle
Order away! I’d be honored to have my photos in Glen’s office! : ) Thanks for your support, Michelle! It’s so encouraging. xoxoxo
I know someone who can help with the business side of things. Oh wait, it’s me!
Well, who’s the best? Oh yeah, it’s you! I’d looooove your help on the business side of things! What a sweet deal I got, marrying into the Sabourin family!
Love that quote…my experience as a mid 50s mom is bearing that out. I am still doing so many things I’ve never done before. Life doesnt get easier but it does get richer I think.
Thank you, thank you, Sue. I’ll take richer over easier! Bless you!
Molly – it’s so wonderful that you are seriously thinking of embarking on this new creative and professional journey; it is inspiring! I wish you the best of luck with your new endeavors. I wish we lived closer so that we could support your business (when it happens) actually! Blessings on you and your family.
Thank you, Emily!! You inspire me with your own creative undertakings!
I so appreciate your blogging your dreams and goals, Molly! Thanks for sharing this! It is an encouragement to me as I, too, look at reaching beyond myself and learning new tricks (one being how to approach 49 years old as it is right before 50!). I’m also going to pass this article along on facebook. I always give you the credit and your blogsite address, I have so many friends who could use these words of wisdom and encouragement.
It’s comforting to know I’m in great company, Margie! You are always so kind and supportive. Thank you!
Good for you. There is something so freeing about getting older. I find it so much easier just to boldly venture out there and always find the ability to transform into something new, launch into a new venture, exhilarating.
Patience and hard work.
And don’t give up on the writing…You have a gift. Walker Percy didn’t publish his first novel until he was 40 and Dorothy Day was 35 when she helped form the Catholic Worker.
And of course, don’t I wish I could be at Barnes and Noble having coffee with you? Love to you,
“Patience and hard work. Patience and hard work.” I’m going to stencil that on my walls. You are the best – just the best friend I could ask for.
I have to say I’m a little jealous Molly. I can’t wait for the day that I can “grow up” and focus my energies to one thing and be able to do it well and stay with it. I do love your photos and all though I am not a photographer, they are beautiful and I think you’ve got a real shot at it. Best of luck on your new journey.
Destiney
Thank you so much, Destiney! I too hope I can focus my energy and stay with this little dream of mine without giving up in frustration! : ) We have to pace ourselves, right? One tiny step at a time! Peace to you!